Dairy Page 1, 2012

I heard few years ago, world is coming to an end in 2012. Dont know how much true
it is, so far nothing extraordinary happened. But definitely 2012 has a significance
in my life. Many decisions taken went wrong. does it mean, I did not read the situaton
thorougly? was I over optimistic? Did I jump into a conclusion without proper judgement?
Was I overconfident in taking decisions? whatever might be the reason, the result is I am
suffering and it is extremely painful.

Success, Health, Happiness are the three things which I always want to be along with me.
Strange but true, I donno why these three friends of mine are staying away from me
this year. I never had any quarrel with them, nor did I make a argument with them.

This year gave a learning experiance that never ignore what your wellwishers say.
Two of my wellwishers pointed out 2 critical things, regarding my personal and professional
life. I donno why, my eyes were closed, I could not realise the importance of their
concern at that time. But, the impact is being clearly seen. I know it is of no use,
to regret at this moment, but a recall of what happened will always help me in not
repeating the mistake again. Does not mean to completely listen what others say.
But pay due attention.

One good thing is, I have maintained my cool as always.I always maintained a meaningful silence when things are going against me, When people started blaming me unnecessarily
though it is their fault. I always stayed away from people who are always with problems.

Pain...

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”

“When someone cries so hard that it hurts their throat, it is out of frustration or knowing that no matter what you can do or attempt to do can change the situation. When you feel like you need to cry, when you want to just get it out, relieve some of the pressure from the inside - that is true pain. Because no matter how hard you try or how bad you want to, you can't. That pain just stays in place. Then, if you are lucky, one small tear may escape from those eyes that water constantly. That one tear, that tiny, salty, droplet of moisture is a means of escape. Although it's just a small tear, it is the heaviest thing in the world. And it doesn't do a damn thing to fix anything.”

“Did you really want to die?"
"No one commits suicide because they want to die."
"Then why do they do it?"
"Because they want to stop the pain.”

“LOVE? It's like a cigarette. You get addicted fast, but it slowly and painfully kills you from the inside out.”

Betrayal: When Someone You Love Betrays You

It is bad enough when a stranger or foe betrays you, but when it is someone you believed to be a close and trusted friend, partner, or spouse, it is especially hurtful. It might feel like you were taken advantage of, deceived, humiliated, despised, cheated, or stabbed in the back. Oftentimes it comes as a surprise. That is why it is so painful. You would not expect to be hurt so badly from someone you thought you could trust. So you are left in disbelief and unbelievable pain.

Anyone who has experienced betrayal in a relationship knows how difficult it is to recover from such an experience. The person you thought you could trust and count on is no longer the person you believed them to be. So you wonder what happened. Were you just wrong about them all along or did something change? Maybe your relationship changed and so did their loyalty to you. Maybe something in either or both of your lives has changed and they became insensitive to you. Or, maybe you both grew apart and in different directions.

There are many reasons that cause people to betray one another. Sometimes they are very deliberate and intended to hurt the other person. And sometimes they are consequences of choices that are made with no intention of doing any harm to anyone. Looking out for one’s own best interests can cause some people to disregard relationships they once valued. They may feel the relationship is in the way or not as important anymore. Feelings change. And as feelings change so do one’s actions and choices. An individual that feels their needs are not being met in a relationship might feel that the relationship is no longer important or worth investing in. Therefore, they might seek to get their needs met elsewhere. This changes the relationship. Eventually, it grows apart and opportunities for betrayal emerge.

Betrayal is a destructive force that leaves many ruins in its path. Betrayal changes everything. Relationships and all those affected will never be the same again. The damage done can be irreparable. Trust is lost. Wounds run deep. Anger persists. Hearts are broken. Self-protective walls are erected. Pain is long and lasting. And we wonder…. Can trust ever be restored? Do wounds ever heal? Will anger cease to exist? Can hearts be repaired? Will the self-protective walls ever come down? Does the pain ever go away?

Not only does betrayal change relationships, it changes individuals. Something happens inside of them. They might find it difficult to ever trust again. They might be more guarded and protective of themselves for fear of being vulnerable again. They might learn to be more discerning and less naïve. Their expectations of others may change. They may reflect on their own role and responsibility in the relationship and what went wrong. They might try to understand, empathize, and forgive. They may be motivated to grow from the experience and learn more about themselves and others.

The pain of betrayal is very real and has a significant impact on the lives of all those who have experienced it. It is one of those painful life experiences that have the power to change people’s hearts and lives forever. If you have ever been betrayed, you cannot change what has happened to you or make the pain go away. You need time to grieve and feel angry. You need time to be comforted and encouraged. You also need time to restore your faith in yourself and others. Betrayal hurts and there is no fast and easy way to heal from its affects. It takes more than time. It takes a heart that will not harden. It takes a commitment to believe in others again. Relationships do change as a result of betrayal; but ultimately, how it changes you is what matters most.

Motivator!

Things which matter most must never be at the mercy of things which matter least…

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.  When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of small pebbles and poured them into the jar.   He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open spaces between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.  They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'YES.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand.  The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor,   as the laughter subsided, ‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the most important things - family, children, health, friends, and favorite passions – things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.  'Take care of the golf balls first - The things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with your dear ones.'

10 worst feelings

endo...naala alochinche janalu maree ekkuva ayipothunnaru lokam lo...

Insights from a unknown person, i feel he is right to some extent.

 

1)      Losing...

2)      Telling a joke & expecting a huge laugh afterwards....but no one makes a sound. Except you.

3)      coming home ready to eat something and realizing someone else has ate it :(

4)      getting compared to someone else

5)      Knowing you were cheated on.

6)      over thinking.

7)      When something is absolutely killing you on the inside, and you have to act like you don't care.

8)      losing, losing, losing, losing, losing, losing, losing, losing, losing, losing.

9)      when someone rejects your "HI" and he/she ignores you like you're not exist in that situation.

10)  When you tried your best but you don't succeed.

You never know...

prodduna lesthe palakarinche gonthu...enduku okaroju palakarinchadam apestundi...

Life lo teliyakunda chesina thappu valla...life long enduku badha padali...

chala ishtam unna vyakthi pi oke okka vishayam valla dvesham enduku puduthundi...

chala ishtam unna pani..danni cheyadam ante virakthi...idhi mathram voddu..anentha 
chiraku enduku anipisthundi..

anni sadhinchina yodhudu...aa okka nela pi vijayam enduku sadhinchalekapoyadu...

oka rangam lo athyunnatha sthayi lo undi..maroka rangam lo
adhe sthayilo uniki enduku chupinchalekapotharo

asalu vijayam anedi dakkuthunda ani alochinche lopu..marichi polentha evariki andanantha 

goppa vijayam enduku varisthundo..

darlu anni musuku poyayi...ika cheekate anukune lopu...oka asha jyothi kalla 
mundu vachi kotha daarlu enduku chupeduthundi..

andarini navvisthu, navvuthu unde vade okkadiga enduku migili pothadu....

nammakam ee eduti vyakthi pi chupette goppa feeling...ani matalu cheppe manishe 
eduti vyakthi ni namminchalani prayathnisthu...prathi kshanam thanani thanu
enduku mosam chesukuntadu...

Even a small lie is dangerous... Cos a single lie discovered is 
enough to create a contagious doubt over every truth expressed..ee statement 
lo entha nijam undo...you never know

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